Big Decisions

Big news today: Zach has decided not to return to medical school in January.

It hasn't completely sunk in yet, but deep down we are pretty crazy excited to be returning to "normal life." We are having a hard time imagining spending another 7 and a half years like this. Max and Levi would be 7 and 8 upon Zach's finishing residency. He would miss out on so much. Although I know it is the right thing for many families, it feels like it's not the right thing for our family.

Zach would make a great physician...he really would. But for us, it's just not worth it. He failed his anatomy class by less than 1% point, and I really think it was the grace of God that allowed this to happen. I know it seems like a funny thing to say, but even though we were feeling like this was perhaps less than God's best for us, I am quite confident we would have kept traveling that road if he would have passed the class. He could easily retake the class over the summer, but has decided to quit now. We made a mistake, but it's okay. We are getting back on track and it feels good. It feels right. Perhaps we would have always had those "what if" questions in the back of our minds if he wouldn't have given medical school a whirl. Perhaps we should have listened a little better to that still small voice in the beginning. Perhaps we serve a God who is forgiving, and kind enough to help us out of our messes.

So, the obvious questions are: What is your plan now? Will you stay in Tulsa, or move back to Colorado? And since the decision just came in yesterday, we really aren't sure...but here's what we do know: We will stay in Tulsa for a while at least. Zach will complete the few classes that he needs to finish his MBA. Then, we are definitely open to moving back to Colorado. But, we will see. We have grown to like Tulsa more than we had intended to. We've made some wonderful friends, we attend a great church, and it has been wonderful to be closer to family...it is unreal how excited Levi is when he gets to go to "Mimi's house." Oh, but those mountains are nice and facebook just doesn't quite do the trick for staying in touch with dear friends there. We ultimately just want to be obedient. We don't want to learn anymore lessons the hard way.